Better Days & Getaways

The centre of things, the core of the apple, in other words, the middle. There are some situations in which being in the middle might be beneficial; for instance, the middle of the attendance list, I was always one of those kids. Or what about being average height? Not too small and not too tall, that’s good right? But what about the circumstances in which being in the centre is a curse more than a blessing? For instance, being the in the centre of the World war, being in the middle of a tug of war battle, or even having just an average GPA in your graduating class? Not so nice now is it. This is probably one of those latter situations in which I feel very stuck, in the middle. Maybe it’s the hormones in me since Asmara, but I’m so tired of this. Humans are funny because they always like to ignore the bad habits, especially in relationships. But when an outside party ‘spoils’ another persons bad habit, the illusion is usually broken. I always knew what I was getting myself into. I alwa...

When I feel like I can't express myself properly, I choose to write. It's a sort of venting I can get out and feel better afterwards. Maybe it's the light to my dark tunnel of thoughts. I'm just tired of having the same type of conversations about problems. What is the point if nothing changes or comes from it? It's as if you're getting frustrated but wasting energy by getting frustrated, because nothing changes and nothing will change. There are many things that are not in your control. And frankly, at this exact point in my life, I don't have time for this, because I just can't think about myself, my wants and my desires, I have another person to take care of, someone so innocent and fragile. It's just that there are certain people whom you cannot walk away from because of the nature of your relationship. Although I would love to but cannot.  I know God grants what is best, and you may not see his plan right away when something happens, but he de...