Better Days & Getaways

Omgoodness. That was my reaction when i finished watching this movie. I had no words, i was absolutely stunned. Wow. What did i just see? I don't know...but i know it was something amazing, epic, incredible, something too big for words. I know, this is surely not a movie you put on to brighten everyone's mood or anything, in fact, it'll just do the opposite of that. But the message that this movie gives is just brilliant. As you all know, this movie is about drugs and how substance abuse can annihilate your dreams and aspirations down the line. It shows the lives of 4 main characters who want to accomplish different things but due to their growing addiction, they are lead down a path of turmoil. In the end, it eventually ends up destroying them. This is what needs to be shown to all the kids out there that wanna try drugs, they need to show this shit. Because nothing gets the message across better then this movie. The acting was brilliant and the portrayal by Aronofsky was ...

When people come back into my life unannounced, i usually don't know how to react. And till this day, i still don't know. I don't even know if the things i say to him are appropriate because im thinking, i don't wanna give out the wrong message...but what's the right one? We're talking perfectly fine as if everyone is happy. And don't get me wrong, i'm over him but im being extremely nice to him. He probably knows it. He knows im probably wondering why he would wanna talk to me again. I thought we made it clear that we couldn't be friends. His definition of friends was different than mine, so we decided it wasn't possible. But now he's just so goddamn friendly...and certain things he says, i have no clue why you would say that to an ex, but he does. And you know what, i take it pretty well, and i don't make the situation awkward at all. But i do wonder...wth does this mean? It's easy for me to be normal with him but the initial confus...

Damn these people who come back into your life. What is it that i'm talking about? Well, yesterday when i came home from a very wet but fun day at Halloween H aunt, i checked my email, something i normally do after a long day. What do i find? Someone has added me on fb. Why? I have no clue. I was literally dumbfounded, at first i thought i might have been tired and that i was just seeing things, but no, it's real. I don't know why he would add me. He knows I've deleted him...from my life. Whats with this? I mean, it really doesn't make any sense. Here's what im thinking, the only way he would add me is if his friends hacked into his account or if he was possessed by the same demon in paranormal activity 2. All jokes aside, i think another reason could be that he wants to be "friends" or he wants to say something. Because let's face it, if he didn't want to say anything, he didn't have to add me, because im sure he's not just doing this ...

Okay so i woke up today with another good feeling...turns out that i had gotten this good feeling from nothing other than just a dream. I remember my friend said to me how he thought that human beings should only be able to have nightmares and not good dreams. Why? He said that at least when you're having a nightmare, you know you'll be able to wake up but if you're having the best dream of your life, you'll just wake up to a big disappointment. Holy shit is that true. So in my dream, we basically went back to the my high school but it was mostly set in a park. I was happily walking through the park when i ran into you know who. Of course, i'm not talking about lord voldemort but you get the picture. He held his big arms out and then he lifted me (like off the ground) and gave me a big fat hug. Said, "i missed you and i wanna be with you." I hugged him back with a smile, clearly unable to react the way i had planned it in my head if it ever was to happen. ...

I had wanted to see this movie the day i saw the trailer. But i seemed to forget about it and other pressing matters of life kicked in and i never had the chance. Now with less than a week left for summer, i finally watched this movie. And wow. I'm completely blown away. It's funny because the narrator tells us at the beginning of the movie that this isn't a love story, but for some weird reason, throughout the movie, when things were going bad between the couple, i still believed that they would end up together. I guess you can blame hollywood for this preconditioned notion majority of us tend to have when watching these romantic movies. The chemistry between Levitt and Deschanel is undeniable, both bring a very fresh, new, quirky kind of affection towards each other. At the same time, they're two very different people with different views on relationships. Tom (Levitt) believes Summer (Deschanel) is the one whereas Summer is not looking for anything serious which you ...

Love. Oh how we misuse this word. I don't think that there's one standard definition of love, because it means different things to different people. And thus, I don't think there is such a thing as love. I mean yes, we have a type of "love" towards our family and friends. I'm talking about the type of love that we find for in a potential husband/wife. I'm not too sure that it exists. The notion of love that is glamourized in the movies is something most people would like to experience when it comes to their real life relationships. I used to think that was stupid, childish and just not practical. But now im thinking, we have every right to believe whatever it is we believe in. What we think love should be, how we think our significant others should treat us. We're allowed to have high expectations. We shouldn't have to compromise. Girls should be treated like they're princesses. Guys should do anything to make them happy. Of course that doesn...

Of course I'm not talking about the thing that us girls experience each month, or else the title of this post would read, it's that time of month again. I'm talking about the holy month of Ramadan, the 29 or 30 days when muslims are supposed to fast. Whenever I asked my mom what the significance of this month was and why we did fast, she'd say, "So that we can feel the pain that poor people go through daily". Yes, that is a legit reason, but unfortunately it just wasn't enough to convince me. I'm thinking, no, of course poor people undergo this horrible feeling they call starvation, but they don't do it by choice. Us on the other hand, are surrounded by food, sometimes even by other people eating the food and we have to resist. It's 10x harder for us than it is for them. That reason just wasn't a valid one to fast for 30 days. And so, I did some research and found out the more detailed meaning behind this month. The purpose of Ramadan is to...

Reconnecting with a past friend is always hard. Especially when that friend is your ex's best friend. I didn't know this was actually gonna happen. I mean yeah, I've gotten his msgs on msn but when i saw that he msged me on xbox live, i was thinking, what is going on here. Yesterday we talked online with our wonderful xbox headsets, but wow. I haven't talked to him in what, 5 or 6 months maybe? It was sort of like a phone conversation because we could hear each others voices...there was some other guy in the conversation and he sure added in some wierd moments in the conversation. Like when he asked him if i was hot or when he asked him how i knew him. Now i'll be the first to admit, i was good friends with him when i was going out with my ex, we used to talk a lot. He was always really nice to me and it was just fun talking to him. But now things are different. I mean, it's silly because i have nothing against him, we're fine. But just the fact that he is h...

I had one of hell of a weekend last week. At no point during the two days was i sitting at home with nothing to do. Both days i went to a theme park with different groups of friends and i also went to someones birthday dinner. That happened yesterday. And we all know what happened yesterday about 3 years ago. Okay, maybe you guys don't know, but 3 years ago i also went to the same themepark with my ex-significant other and my cousin and her ex-significant other. So 3 years later, i'm at the same place but with my friends, the people that i care more about. The people that matter to me. Boys come and go but friends always remain...unless you get into a really big fight with them, then it just becomes awkward. Anyways, i'm just glad that i spent yesterday with my friends because now i remember that day not for him but for the amazing time i had with my friends. They have no idea but i'm thanking them for in a way, saving me. And today i see my bestest friend in the whole ...

No, I'm not talking about the things that hang in your house over your dinner table and in the washrooms. I'm talking about the artist called Lights. Her real name is Valerie something...but Lights definetely suits her image. I first heard her on the radio when she released her first single "Drive my soul". I thought to myself, who is this cute singer, because her voice is kind of kiddish and cute but pleasing to the ears at the same time. I loved that song hence it would always be playing on my ipod when i went out for bike rides. And i used to do that a lot last summer and the summer before that. Now, i can't seem to fit something as little as a bike ride into my scedule or maybe it's not the same anymore. Cuz I'm definetely not the person i was last summer. But this post is about Lights, not about my sad life story ;P Anywho, her latest single is "Second Go" and might i add that her video for that song is definetely artistic. She's basica...

Just now i was watching the mtv show "Teen Mom" and it was intense. I really enjoy the show because it follows the real lives and situations of these teen parents. There is no fairytale ending, it's raw and it's real life. And sometimes, real life does suck. One mom named Farrah, went through a physical altercation with her mother and thus moved out of the house with her baby daughter. She doesn't get along with her family and shows little interest to put any effort into those broken relationships. So she went and got a therapist because she is a single mom who is working to take care of her child without her family's help. Upon meeting the therapist, she begins to talk about her feelings. At one point she reveals the story behind Sophia's (her daughter) father being absent from the picture. She tells the therapist that her father passed away and how she's crushed because her daughter won't be able to see him. That was an emotionally intense episod...

These days almost never disappear, especially if you're the kind of person to think of things philosophically. Even after you make those resolutions to be happy in life, and not pay attention to things that don't matter, there will always be dark days. I had a slighlty dark evening last night. I was staring outside the window of my car as we were driving past trees and darkness to get home. I mean, obviously you're gonna think of things and music definitely helps. Sometimes i wish i would just stop myself from thinking things that could hurt me or others. But i can't. It's like the fact that if you tell yourself to stop thinking about it, in the end, you'll only think about it more. But at these times, when your mind is not cooperating with you, you should always talk to someone about it. Whether this someone is yourself, God or your best friend. Don't continue in your thinking all by yourself, voice your thoughts. As i learned from HIMYM, everyone has bagga...

So there i was with my best friend Shradha. We were shopping in a mall which was really crowded. But it wasn't filled with normal everyday life strangers, it was filled with graydonites. Shradha spotted the first one as we were going down the escalators. It was this nerdy guy who used to be a part of robotics or something like that. I was kind of relieved because it was just him. Little did i know, i was relieved much too soon. Because right then and there a whole crowd of graydonites started running up the escalators. They were all part of the same grade too, the grade one year younger than us. As the crowd was on the move, Shradha and I decided to go downstairs. But then i noticed something, a guy with a backpack wearing a green hoodie. I've seen this guy before. Of course it was none other than him. But he was so involved in what all the other graydonites (or his friends) were doing, he didn't look in our direction. Thank the Gods. Then as soon as he passed, we started g...

The song " Pushing me Away " is a constant reminder of how horrible it must be to get your heart broken. And guys, i too have the experience of being rejected...it freakin' sucks. But what sucks even more is when someone who's experienced a broken heart, has to break someone else's. I am not looking forward to this conversation...but i know i must have it. I've never been in this situation, and i'm not happy i am in it right now. I don't want to hurt anyone...I wish this hadn't come up, because now it changes things. It changes our dynamic. It's like a can of worms that has been opened and can never be closed. I know how hard it must be for this person to express whatever it is that they're feeling inside and maybe, the fact that they have now told me, might even boost their confidence a little. But i don't want to be in this situation. What's my first instinct? To runaway and ignore it. But that wouldn't be fair to them now wou...

Today i watched a movie called " The Invention of Lying".  Overall, it was a funny movie and it definitely had its philosophical moments. After watching this i started to realize...how extremely anal i can be about life in general. I mean, i don't think its only me, i'm sure majority of the population in this world tends to act the same way. I think every single one of us takes this life for granted (no shit sherlock) and i think that sometimes, even though we know that for a fact, we never change our perspectives. Our priorities remain the same and our emotions overreact in the same way. Every little thing seems to upset us or make us feel unwanted emotions. We overanalyze all the small things in life and we forget about what life is. The amazing wonders of the world pass us by and we just don't care because we're too busy making mundane things into big issues. If we look at it this way, we really only get one chance, we only get one life (yes, there are theo...

I never knew that life could go by so quickly. Well...okay, maybe i knew that much. But it's funny to me to see all the changes that are happening around me. Firstly, where i work, people are dropping like flies, randomly disappearing for days only to find out, they've left the job. Or other people are getting promoted and being moved around the department. Some are even getting hired because with all the layoffs, the workload remains the same. What i don't understand is that why is this company hiring new individuals when they can just NOT LAYOFF those who have worked here for a long time and actually know what they're doing, so no training is required. One of my managers no longer works here anymore. I have NO CLUE what happened. I'm sure if you're about to be layed off, they give you a notice a few weeks in advanced...weird. And i've just about had it with certain people i work with. I guess this is what happens when you put a bunch of random people...

"Looking so dissatisfied. And the ground below grew colder, as they put you down inside. But the heartless wind kept blowing, blowing." Damn, I completely forgot how good Linkin Park was. I remember in grade 10, I was completely obsessed with them almost as much as i was obsessed with food. I listened to every single one of their songs on their albums. The best thing is I have a certain memory associated with most of their songs. So here imma list some of my favourite songs by them and memories that are bound to them. 1. Crawling Reanimation ft. Staind : Making the best amv I've ever made in the history of amv's. It was inspired by the emotional breakdown Light had in the anime death note. I made it after i had finally finished the  series. After a few days of it being posted on you-tube, (and getting awesome feedback) it was taken down because of some lame-ass copyright issues...well, i guess they weren't so lame. 2. In Pieces: I remember talking to m...

Some people in this world have the unfortunate fate of living in a certain pattern their whole lives. It's as if they're stuck and they never get a chance to properly grow up. I look out the window on a rainy day, and it makes me sad, because i realize, i'm one of those people. I will never get a chance to truly be independent like other people get at this age. I won't get a chance to experience my teenage years like other people might. Why, because of my damn culture. Culture and religion, these things that bind us for life. To weird traditions, rituals and choices that are supposed to lead us to the right path. This right path is VERY subjective. Of course everyone should have some sort of morals to keep themselves grounded in this life. But who on earth would keep anyone from experiencing the real world? I have never understood this at all. Yeah, there are people in this world who prefer to be home-bodies and stay at home and watch movies or something...which is fin...

You know that feeling when you think you've finally began to take a step forward in your life? Well, you know that feeling where that step you took counts for nothing because you're back to the beginning again? Yeah, that one. It's a pretty disheartening feeling. To fall flat on your face again is not something that everyone wishes to feel. For this past week, i have thought long and hard about how i can move forward from what happened. I thought i made the right decision, but after a few moments and a surprising text message, i had come back to what i was trying to run away from. I have taken all the parts with you out of my life. You made this decision easy for me and I thank you for it. How awful would it had been if you had actually wanted to stay friends with me. Anytime i would see your face it would only remind me of the numerous amount of despair and pain you had caused me. But then I'd be between a rock and a hard place, thinking 0f course i wish to remain frie...

"I don't wanna be where you are. I don't wanna be here even now. I don't wanna be by your side, if something isn't right, and something isn't right. This is our last goodnight. This is our last goodbye, this is where love ends." These lines basically state that when all else fails when maintaining a relationship with someone, you just have to let them go. This is what I have done. I've set myself free and there's no looking back now. Because i just wish to move forward with this decision. I want to be myself again, the same person who didn't need you. I know there's nothing left for us to say to each other. I know that we will never meet again. But you know what, for the first time in a long time, I just don't care. I don't care if you're safe, I don't care where you're going from here, I don't care if you've changed. I just don't care. I'm doing me right now. And even though i'm not an incredibly sel...

There's so many people in this world. About 7 billion. But out of those people, who do you think actually care for you? Not much is the right answer to that question. It's really hard to find people who genuinely give a shit about you. I mean, you think you have found your best friends forever, but sooner or later, they turn their back against you. They forget to call you, text you, email you...they start to forget you. You know the saying " absence makes the heart grow fonder "? What BULLSHIT. Noooooo. In no way is that much space EVER good. Whether it be for a relationship with your BFF or your BF. That much distance only spells trouble. In this day and age, communication is KEY to any relationship. And communication IS NOT FREAKIN' HARD TO DO. Thanks to our wonderful technological upgrades, anyone can get in touch with someone else. It's all about want. Whether the other person is important enough to be contacted. And thats when we meet the people who just...

Opinions. Everyone has them. Or should I say, every cool person has them. I don't really understand these "neutral" people. Every once in a while you meet an individual who, during an intense debate, chooses not to say anything. Then you're sitting there thinking, "what the hell are you doing over here?! Why not just get up and leave the conversation...don't just sit there, have an opinion!" Then there are those people who just can't seem to shutup. You know, the ones that have an opinion about every thing on this planet. From why the world's gonna end in 2012, to who deserves to be in the music industry. These people just won't shutup. They think it's either their way or the high way. WHY. Life is totally subjective, so I'm really surprised that these stubborn individuals actually exist. How can you walk around going, "no, you should do this with your life, this is who you should like, blah blah im just upset i havent gotten l...

Anger is a very a common emotion nowadays. Different people have different ways of showing their anger. I don't really get angry...I don't really turn into the incredible hulk like some people do. I just get frustrated or in todays terms, "pissed off". To be honest, there are many things that get under my skin.  For example, reverse parking. Who the hell..wants to reverse park?! Because getting sandwiched in between two cars is DEF where I want to park my car. Like seriously? If you haven't picked up on this yet, YES I am a learning driver who is in the process of getting my licence. Parking is my only obstacle. Driving straight. Check. Turning. Check. Lane Change. Check. Braking and Accelerating. Check. Parking. EPIC FAIL. why is it so hard to get your licence in Canada? Americans just need to pass one test and boom, they have a licence. We need to devote our time and effort to attain our g1, then g2 then g. Seems like we got jibbed guys.  There are many th...

Are you a senior in highschool? Are you slacking right now because you've already accepted your university offer? Do you want nothing more then summer to come faster? If your answer is yes to any of these questions then you shall be forewarned as nothing good is going to happen during the next few years of your life. You may be stoked about finally graduating from high school but trust me, you'll start to miss it. My job here is to prepare you, so that you're not living in a fantasy world. One word comes to mind when the term " University " is mentioned. And it's not heaven. University is rape...all kinds of rape. First, if you're the lucky soul who gets to live on campus or on " res" then you probably will have more fun than the unfortunate commuters. BUT your gpa will surely suffer. Unless your of course, supah smart. And I haven't met a lot of supah smart people. Even when I asked a student who was incredibly intelligent, her grades also ...

I'm sure everyone's heard of the social networking site called [Facebook]. It was started by some dude who got extremely rich because the site exploded with people and became really popular. I joined facebook a bit after the crowd because initially I was thinking that I'm not going to follow the herd. But sooner than later, I succumbed to peer pressure and created an account. And here I am 3 years later, debating on whether I should delete or deactivate my account.  I came to this decision because I realized how mentally retarded facebook can be. First things first, people on facebook post their pictures for everyone to see. And what's even more creepy, is that EVERYONE goes through everyone elses pictures. Whether they comment, like or dislike your pictures, they are still being the creepy stalker that they are and looking through them. I have to say that is just weird. I'm proud to say that I don't go through other people's pictures. I've passe...

So one day you decide that you're gonna play video games. The problem is, you don't have a console. No problem. After going through the various options, you decide to buy an xbox 360. You buy a decent game to play [halo3,cod2,left4dead] Oh and you don't forget to purchase a year's subscription of xbox live. Now you're officially a brand new member on xbox live, you choose your avatar, what she wears, you update your gamer card and sign into xbox live. Upon entering the online portion of the gaming world, you plug in your mic to say hi to the gamers out there. First response "are you a chick?" Now tell me, why is that such a big deal. YES I'm a chick and I play video games...what is so surprising. Granted we may not be as  good at these games compared to other guys but if we practice, we can sure as hell get up there. Now I'm no feminist but seriously, chicks can play video games. Why? For all the reasons guys play video games. And what's even...

Have you guys heard this song? You guys should listen to it. It's very catchy. Of course I'm talking about Eenie Meanie by Sean Kingston and Justin Bieber. It's funny cos in the song they are talking about girls who are...let's just say 'friendly' and jump from one guy to the next because they can't decide. I just have one question, what were they smoking when they wrote this song? I do like the song and the beat and hook and whatnots. But REALLY? Girls are the 'eenie meanie miney mo' lovers?! REALLY? Since when do you hear about a girl who can't decide on a guy. Oh wait, this song only applies to "those kind of girls". OBV. How else would it make sense? As we all know, girls adore the commitment, fidelity, morals, long term-ness, need I say more? I guess there are definitely girls who hide behind their insecurities and have casual meaningless sex. But unfortunately girls, you will get attached. I'm sorry, it's just the way you ...

I think everyone who listens to music, should know who the hell Drake is. Remember that kid in Degrassi we all felt sorry for because he had a psycho girlfriend and legs that couldn't function? Yep, that's Drake. Or Aubrey Drake Graham to be exact. Well, he prefers Drake and I guess...we do too =) So Drake became popular in 2009 with his single 'Best I ever had' And I didn't really know who Drake was at the time of this song release. I remember the first time I heard this song, I was thinking who the hell is this guy? It seems like he's just having a conversation in the song and saying you tha fuckin best over and over again. Then he grew on me and I'm so glad he did. Have you guys seen that smile? Can you say perfection? Ignoring his gorgeous looks, he has swagga. In a lot of his videos, he rarely makes eye contact with the camera, and when he does, it's cuz he knows he's better than you. Yes you. He stares right into your soul...SEXY. He also hasn...

I'm sure you guys are familiar with MTV's show 16& Pregnant. It first aired in 2008-2009ish. This show goes through the lives of teenagers who end up in an unfortunate predicament, teenage pregnancy. As all shows aired on MTV, season one isn't the last we heard from 16& Pregnant. I just finished watching the finale of season 2, and I only have one word. WOW. Was it just me or were all the guys in this season true d-bags? It's hard to believe that all guys act recklessly and just don't care about the over-burdened teen moms that they once used to call their girlfriends. All I hope is that not all guys are like that. Way to pick the worst couples MTV. And this leads to another question...who the hell casts these guys for the show?! Notice how they're families of white background. Once in a blue moon, we throw in a Hispanic couple. Notice how none of the families are brown...and we all can guess at why this is...now I'm not making the assumption that b...