Better Days & Getaways

Do you not think so far ahead? Cause I've been thinking about forever. I remember how could I forget, how you feel We'll go down this road till it turns from colour to black and white. I'm glad to say that I'm finally at a place in my life where I'm truly satisfied with my growth over the past year. I learned a lot about myself and what I can do and overcome. And anything is possible, even when it seems like you have hit rock bottom, you will find the light once again, just hang in there. Slowly and slowly, life's jigsaw pieces will start to connect and it will make sense. It's true that you're not left with the same amount of friends that you started off with but you will have made quality friends along the way, the ones you want at your wedding. I'm grateful for having the strength to hold on. Because not only have I come home (yes that was a drake reference) I'm also quite happy, can't tell why though. Just not yet.

"Don't mistake my kindness for weakness. I am kind to everyone but when someone is unkind to me, weak is not what you will remember about me." 

My year at this school has come to an end, in less than 24 hours I will be done my wonderful contract at this job. And what better way to end my work year than by getting yelled at by one of the ALT members. This year has taught me many things, some of which may be rendered useless but some I can take from Angleterre and truly use for my growth. I have done what many teachers consider the hardest year of being a teacher, my first year. I will not say that to move here was a regret, because i have grown. And the me who came here in August is not the same me going back home this August. But that's people right? We are always changing based on our experiences and our environment. I've become more desensitized or numb to the very rude comments and behaviour that I've exhibited by these children and dare i say it but i will because they won't find me here, some of the staff. Emotions...who needs those. Eye donut carrot all.  What i will definitely miss is the London life. ...

I don't think I love you no more, You never seem to call me lately, But I don't think he knew me at all, Cause I'd never thought I'd have to say this, But I'm no liar, and I never hid anything I should've seen it coming to this, just know... I'm not singing for an ex though, I'm just singing cause it's over.

There's many things that I feel and think but I'll never say. I guess because I'm thinking no one wants to hear them because it's a whole mess of the inner workings of Samra Nadeem. Some don't make sense and some are just repeats. We don't need to make sense of our thoughts or our emotions because then it wouldn't be real life. I feel very lost, maybe because this is the transition stage. I find myself seeking for answers that remain without questions. The persistent advice you get is "time will tell". Things will happen when they are supposed to and when things are right. I do believe in destiny and I do believe that Allah has written this down for us. But I would be lying if I didn't say that I wish I had a fast forward remote. How tragic is that concept. In one hand I want to hold every grain of sand that slips from time and using the other (most probably my left) I want to throw a chunk of it away. Do I lack patience? Or am I just going thr...

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I've loved you for many years, Baby I am just not enough  You made me realize my deepest fears By lying, and tearing us up. 

Maine dekha tujhe bhula ke Har ek tarqeeb laga ke Har nuskhe ko aazma ke Par dil se kabhi na utre

Everyone knows I'm right about one thing You and I don't work out You bring out the mean in me I bring out your insecurities You know what I am talking bout Eventually you'll be fine if we break up And one day I'll be fine too But we should just end it now Before someone gets more hurt than they have to As for our house, I'll move out You can keep the dog we trained Things soon will be like before I ever met you Before I ever met you Before I ever met you I never knew that my heart could love so hard Before I ever met you I never knew I would be enemies with disregard Before I ever met you I never knew that I liked to be kissed for days Before I ever met you I never knew I could be broken in so many ways I never knew I could be broken in so many ways I never knew I could be broken in so many Everyone knows I'm right about one thing You are my only vice And I got you addicted to trying to be bulletproof ...