Better Days & Getaways

Why is it that whenever we have to say goodbye, milna bohut zaroori ho jata hai. Like the last time. It just needs to happen kind of thing. Is this built in us from movies and what we've seen in media? Life is not a movie though...no matter how much we try to reenact what we see on the big screen, it just never translates into real life. There's no guy who will come running after us when our train is leaving, there's no guy who will come marching in right before you're about to say "i do" and say "i object". These grand gestures, these fictitious moves, don't exist anymore. We're in the pleasure seeking generation. We've become that. Quick fix in other words. Many things aren't done right, many things aren't considered, because what are we thinking about? Ourselves. We want to be happy, even if it's for a temporary time. We want that euphoria, that pleasure, and we forget our existence, what our soul actually wants. Some peopl...

When an idea fills your head, it becomes similar to an infection. As someone once said, the most dangerous thing in this world is to plant an idea in someone's head. Because once it's there, it will have a hard time getting out. Now, in the olden times there would be scary procedures such as lobotomies, electroconvulsive shock therapy, neurosurgery etc. But these are last resort as they have crazy side effects. With that being said, what are you supposed to do when a thought is impeding your mental health? Are you supposed to focus on it, or are you supposed to distract yourself from it? I guess, it would depend on what type of 'idea' this is. And that is dependent on various other factors. I guess what i'm trying to express over here is that, i'm having a hard time. I'm having difficulties not thinking, it's all i do all the time. Thinking about the wrong things, thinking about inappropriate destructive things that shouldn't matter, but they sure as...

Some people are meant to come in your life to teach you lessons, some people are meant to come into your life to break you so hard that you grow from it, and some people are meant to stay in your life and help you grow, side by side, hand in hand. The former of these two phrases are quite depressing. I'm not really sure what has happened. No, i do know what has happened. I got fucked. Pardon my French.  I don't know how else to describe it. I've never felt so disrespected, taken advantage of left right and centre. It hurts. When you tumble into a pit of nothingness where nothing is real anymore, nothing makes sense, nothing was honest, you just don't know how to react. How do you claim to love me and do these things? Love, this is not love. If this is your love please, i'd hate to see your hate. Oh but wait, i think i already have. How? How does someone have these things inside them, the ability to ruin someone. My biggest flaw was taken advantage of, I was always h...

Hi friend, These days it's getting harder and harder to impress you, because let's face it, nothing i do impresses you. You're completely right, honesty is the best policy...in life, and i'm so sorry that i've lied about things during the month of Ramadan and that i've lied to you...multiple times. You seem to think it's because whatever it is that i'm hiding is wrong and that i am falling into a big giant hole. Let me put things into some sort of perspective, because for some reason, in front of you i cannot explain in words. I'm doing what i think is right, you can hate me for it, you can stop watching me...but you can never and will never understand how much i feel for this person. I told you before and im telling you now, i'm in love with him and he's hurt me a lot, no denying that, but he's also made me so happy. And that happiness is more than how much he's hurt me. Nothing is a guarantee, no promises can be made forever becau...