Better Days & Getaways

I ended up initiating the first move, aka, I messaged him after a little more than a day of not talking to him. It seems trivial right now, but I always text him, like everyday, so the fact that we didn't talk for that long really says something. You know, it took a lot for me to even say anything to him because last time I talked him, he hurt me so much by imitating me. Anyways, deep down, I missed him, I really did. So I began easing into the conversation and believe me...it was slightly awkward. After a bit of monotonous messages, I got straight to the point and asked him if he was mad at me (ridiculous...I know seeing as I hung up in anger initially) He said he wasn't mad at me but that he was tired of 'stuff'. Now, till this moment, I don't know what 'stuff' means but I felt like he was saying something along the lines of a relationship. Anyways, I apologized for hanging up on him but I wanted to let him know how I felt, so I let him know that. But that...

So, I haven't done one of these posts in a while...but man...is life a big mess right now. To begin with, I got back the results of my French proficiency test and just as expected, I did not manage to get a 75% in all the strands (listening, reading, writing, speaking). What a freakin' surprise. 75%...you don't say! I feel like cursing everyone who came up with this dumb rule, but in some ways, I guess it makes sense. It just demotivated me when I first saw it...failure always sucks, regardless of how you feel about it down the road, that moment when you get the results, and they're not what you hoped they would be...failure always sucks. But I moved on from that, just gotta try again. Furthermore, after about 3 months of searching for a job, I finally got one at Mcds. I know, I know, it's Mcd's. But seriously, a job is a job. I just wish my wonderful significant other would be nice about it. Speaking of, turbulence there is in the relationship. Yes, I just pull...