Better Days & Getaways

So there i was with my best friend Shradha. We were shopping in a mall which was really crowded. But it wasn't filled with normal everyday life strangers, it was filled with graydonites. Shradha spotted the first one as we were going down the escalators. It was this nerdy guy who used to be a part of robotics or something like that. I was kind of relieved because it was just him. Little did i know, i was relieved much too soon. Because right then and there a whole crowd of graydonites started running up the escalators. They were all part of the same grade too, the grade one year younger than us. As the crowd was on the move, Shradha and I decided to go downstairs. But then i noticed something, a guy with a backpack wearing a green hoodie. I've seen this guy before. Of course it was none other than him. But he was so involved in what all the other graydonites (or his friends) were doing, he didn't look in our direction. Thank the Gods. Then as soon as he passed, we started g...

The song " Pushing me Away " is a constant reminder of how horrible it must be to get your heart broken. And guys, i too have the experience of being rejected...it freakin' sucks. But what sucks even more is when someone who's experienced a broken heart, has to break someone else's. I am not looking forward to this conversation...but i know i must have it. I've never been in this situation, and i'm not happy i am in it right now. I don't want to hurt anyone...I wish this hadn't come up, because now it changes things. It changes our dynamic. It's like a can of worms that has been opened and can never be closed. I know how hard it must be for this person to express whatever it is that they're feeling inside and maybe, the fact that they have now told me, might even boost their confidence a little. But i don't want to be in this situation. What's my first instinct? To runaway and ignore it. But that wouldn't be fair to them now wou...

Today i watched a movie called " The Invention of Lying".  Overall, it was a funny movie and it definitely had its philosophical moments. After watching this i started to realize...how extremely anal i can be about life in general. I mean, i don't think its only me, i'm sure majority of the population in this world tends to act the same way. I think every single one of us takes this life for granted (no shit sherlock) and i think that sometimes, even though we know that for a fact, we never change our perspectives. Our priorities remain the same and our emotions overreact in the same way. Every little thing seems to upset us or make us feel unwanted emotions. We overanalyze all the small things in life and we forget about what life is. The amazing wonders of the world pass us by and we just don't care because we're too busy making mundane things into big issues. If we look at it this way, we really only get one chance, we only get one life (yes, there are theo...

I never knew that life could go by so quickly. Well...okay, maybe i knew that much. But it's funny to me to see all the changes that are happening around me. Firstly, where i work, people are dropping like flies, randomly disappearing for days only to find out, they've left the job. Or other people are getting promoted and being moved around the department. Some are even getting hired because with all the layoffs, the workload remains the same. What i don't understand is that why is this company hiring new individuals when they can just NOT LAYOFF those who have worked here for a long time and actually know what they're doing, so no training is required. One of my managers no longer works here anymore. I have NO CLUE what happened. I'm sure if you're about to be layed off, they give you a notice a few weeks in advanced...weird. And i've just about had it with certain people i work with. I guess this is what happens when you put a bunch of random people...

"Looking so dissatisfied. And the ground below grew colder, as they put you down inside. But the heartless wind kept blowing, blowing." Damn, I completely forgot how good Linkin Park was. I remember in grade 10, I was completely obsessed with them almost as much as i was obsessed with food. I listened to every single one of their songs on their albums. The best thing is I have a certain memory associated with most of their songs. So here imma list some of my favourite songs by them and memories that are bound to them. 1. Crawling Reanimation ft. Staind : Making the best amv I've ever made in the history of amv's. It was inspired by the emotional breakdown Light had in the anime death note. I made it after i had finally finished the  series. After a few days of it being posted on you-tube, (and getting awesome feedback) it was taken down because of some lame-ass copyright issues...well, i guess they weren't so lame. 2. In Pieces: I remember talking to m...

Some people in this world have the unfortunate fate of living in a certain pattern their whole lives. It's as if they're stuck and they never get a chance to properly grow up. I look out the window on a rainy day, and it makes me sad, because i realize, i'm one of those people. I will never get a chance to truly be independent like other people get at this age. I won't get a chance to experience my teenage years like other people might. Why, because of my damn culture. Culture and religion, these things that bind us for life. To weird traditions, rituals and choices that are supposed to lead us to the right path. This right path is VERY subjective. Of course everyone should have some sort of morals to keep themselves grounded in this life. But who on earth would keep anyone from experiencing the real world? I have never understood this at all. Yeah, there are people in this world who prefer to be home-bodies and stay at home and watch movies or something...which is fin...

You know that feeling when you think you've finally began to take a step forward in your life? Well, you know that feeling where that step you took counts for nothing because you're back to the beginning again? Yeah, that one. It's a pretty disheartening feeling. To fall flat on your face again is not something that everyone wishes to feel. For this past week, i have thought long and hard about how i can move forward from what happened. I thought i made the right decision, but after a few moments and a surprising text message, i had come back to what i was trying to run away from. I have taken all the parts with you out of my life. You made this decision easy for me and I thank you for it. How awful would it had been if you had actually wanted to stay friends with me. Anytime i would see your face it would only remind me of the numerous amount of despair and pain you had caused me. But then I'd be between a rock and a hard place, thinking 0f course i wish to remain frie...

"I don't wanna be where you are. I don't wanna be here even now. I don't wanna be by your side, if something isn't right, and something isn't right. This is our last goodnight. This is our last goodbye, this is where love ends." These lines basically state that when all else fails when maintaining a relationship with someone, you just have to let them go. This is what I have done. I've set myself free and there's no looking back now. Because i just wish to move forward with this decision. I want to be myself again, the same person who didn't need you. I know there's nothing left for us to say to each other. I know that we will never meet again. But you know what, for the first time in a long time, I just don't care. I don't care if you're safe, I don't care where you're going from here, I don't care if you've changed. I just don't care. I'm doing me right now. And even though i'm not an incredibly sel...

There's so many people in this world. About 7 billion. But out of those people, who do you think actually care for you? Not much is the right answer to that question. It's really hard to find people who genuinely give a shit about you. I mean, you think you have found your best friends forever, but sooner or later, they turn their back against you. They forget to call you, text you, email you...they start to forget you. You know the saying " absence makes the heart grow fonder "? What BULLSHIT. Noooooo. In no way is that much space EVER good. Whether it be for a relationship with your BFF or your BF. That much distance only spells trouble. In this day and age, communication is KEY to any relationship. And communication IS NOT FREAKIN' HARD TO DO. Thanks to our wonderful technological upgrades, anyone can get in touch with someone else. It's all about want. Whether the other person is important enough to be contacted. And thats when we meet the people who just...