Amsterdam

"I don't wanna be where you are. I don't wanna be here even now. I don't wanna be by your side, if something isn't right, and something isn't right. This is our last goodnight. This is our last goodbye, this is where love ends." These lines basically state that when all else fails when maintaining a relationship with someone, you just have to let them go. This is what I have done. I've set myself free and there's no looking back now. Because i just wish to move forward with this decision. I want to be myself again, the same person who didn't need you. I know there's nothing left for us to say to each other. I know that we will never meet again. But you know what, for the first time in a long time, I just don't care. I don't care if you're safe, I don't care where you're going from here, I don't care if you've changed. I just don't care. I'm doing me right now. And even though i'm not an incredibly selfish person, when it comes to you...i am. I'm just happy that i'm finally at this point where i can make choices like these and not regret them. because i know what i'm doing is for the best, the best for me. I would like to forgive you but more importantly, i would like to forget you. All the memories you have given me remain, but the importance of them does not. And maybe 8 months ago that statement would affect me, but now it does not. Because so much time has passed, for me to get to this point, and all i can do embrace it, because for so long i've wanted this. I've wanted to not care. And now i'm finally here. And it's thanks to my family and friends, but more importantly, it's thanks to me. Because i held on, for some better days and getaways. This body will not shed a tear over you after tonight. I wish i could say i hope you have a good life. But that would be a lie. Because i do not hope for anything for you. I do not hope for the best or for the worst. I am emotionless...towards you.

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