Better Days & Getaways

It's been 8 days since I last wrote in this blog...and you know what? I still feel the same way. Why is this crush lasting so long? I thought it'd be temporary...I can't stop thinking about him. He's just so cute to me and all I wanna do is hug him. The funny thing is that he probably doesn't know and probably never thought about me like that. It sort of feels like when in Friends, Rachel finds out that Ross was madly in love with her and Monica kept asking Rachel if she would go out with Ross. Rachel's response was that she never looked at Ross in that way, and that she would have to think about it. I feel like he might say something similar along those lines. But there is definitely something stopping this from happening, it's a big thing. I don't know how he feels about it, whether it would be a consideration for him or not. I can't get a read on how he would react. But because of that, I will never tell him. I mean, it's not like i'm not ...

Is it just me or is there always a friend in your life that you've been attracted to since the first day you met them? And for some x, y, z reason, you can't say anything to them and you just kick this attraction into the deep layers of subconsciousness. I feel like the fact that they are forbidden territory just makes this attraction more, i wouldn't say stronger but more existent. And then we find ourselves subtly giving clues to this person that sometimes we are not even aware about ourselves. For example, there is a saying that if you're in a room with someone you're attracted to, your body language will show it, more specifically, your belly button will be aligned with the other persons. Now, I don't know how much i believe that, but i guess i can say sometimes it's true. But i guess that makes that saying very subjective. Even right now as I write this entry, i feel that it's counterproductive...as if just by thinking of this person, my brain is re...