Damn you emotions

It's been 8 days since I last wrote in this blog...and you know what? I still feel the same way. Why is this crush lasting so long? I thought it'd be temporary...I can't stop thinking about him. He's just so cute to me and all I wanna do is hug him. The funny thing is that he probably doesn't know and probably never thought about me like that. It sort of feels like when in Friends, Rachel finds out that Ross was madly in love with her and Monica kept asking Rachel if she would go out with Ross. Rachel's response was that she never looked at Ross in that way, and that she would have to think about it. I feel like he might say something similar along those lines. But there is definitely something stopping this from happening, it's a big thing. I don't know how he feels about it, whether it would be a consideration for him or not. I can't get a read on how he would react. But because of that, I will never tell him. I mean, it's not like i'm not meeting anyone else, I am still open to other guys but he just does something else to me. Whenever he messages me, I light up and feel so giddy. If something were to happen between us, I feel like it'd have to be in a situation where we just fall into it...like it wouldn't be a 'i like you' 'do you like me' kinda thing. Sometimes I feel like we are perfectly compatible for each other and how we'd make such a good pair. Shit. I need to stop myself...I feel so friend zoned. And right now, I don't trust my emotions as much because I'm just in a vulnerable state. Let's see what happens and if i still  like him a week from now.

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