Better Days & Getaways

No one should ever be near a computer this late into the night, because i feel like the later it gets the more gutsy you get and might do things you regret. For example, I have chosen to blog about what it is i'm feeling right now completely tired and just feeling a bit sad. As said per HIMYM, "kids, when it's after 2am, just go to sleep". But here i am, yet again. So i came back from my 'date' a while back and then i met with another friend who evidently was stoned but i had to wait for him to tell me that :P Anyways, i feel sad. It felt slightly odd going on a date with a guy that was not him. Like yeah we had good conversations but it didn't hit the right spot. Obviously, I am not over him and I'm not going to pretend i am because that would just be a lie. I see my best friend in love with her bf of only 7 months and they're honestly crazy about each other. This is to an extent which i cannot fathom. Not because i don't believe in love like ...

So, a lot of things have happened ever since my best friend died. Wow, sometimes i have to hand it to myself for being melodramatic. My best friend didn't actually 'die' per se, but this is exactly what it feels like. It's quite painful. But this entry is not about that. It's about how life is just so crazy. I actually never thought i'd find myself in this position especially right after what happened. But what can i say, things are different i'm handling things differently. My strategy is different from what it was about 2ish years ago. I shall not mope and sit at home, i shall meet new people and explore my options. I went to my friend's birthday party not too long ago downtown and I met a lot of people, mainly from the loo. But yeah i met a guy, he seemed nice enough, and we talked the whole time and he even dropped me off to the bus station. Now, I'm usually very good at picking up vibes from people aka boys. I can usually tell when they're i...

Eid Mubarak to everyone :) I couldn't believe that Ramadan came and went so fast. It started off great and then went downhill from there, but having to go through this during the period when you're not eating can really take a toll on your body. At first, I couldn't eat at all but towards the end of the month, i began going back to my old routine. So, the first time in a long time today on the day of Eid, my family and I actually had stuff to do! First, i went to Eid prayers which I hadn't done in almost two years. And then afterwards I saw some of my friends and later at night we had a dinner party at our house with my cousins. Now, my cousins and I don't really see eye to eye with a lot of things and we're not as close as one would suspect us to be in this position. But Annum was visiting with her hubby Saad so it was fun! They came over, we chilled and played some games. Even though we're not close, I feel like there's that bond with us that we can do...

So tomorrow one of my best friends Lais finally comes back from France after about 7 and a half months! Wow, it's been sucha long time since I've seen her. I miss her so very much. Can't wait. I could really use her at a time like this. She's always been great to me, very supportive and just an awesome friend. I know she can comfort me like no other just because we've reached that stage in our friendship. Maybe the fact that we lived together strengthened that bond. We've honestly been with each other through our highs and lows. Really, at the end of the day, during tough times is when you realize who is actually there for you. And I know she always is/will be. I hope she had a wonderful time in Paris, but now Canada wants her back. I just hope she isn't sad that she won't be with her bf all the time. That can really mess someone up. Thats why I almost always say, don't fall in love on vacation. It just seems impractical and a set up for heart break....

Sometimes when the tough gets going there's really nowhere else to turn to except for God, or your spiritual side. It has been almost a year since I had set foot in a mosque, and i'm so happy I decided to go. It reminded me again of why I love this month, this holy month of Ramadan. I have been fasting and praying everyday, but for some reason I never had anyone to go to the mosque with. But today was a special night, it was the night where the imaam (kind of like a priest but for muslims) was finishing the last chapter of our holy book, the Quran. After reading all of the surahs in this last chapter, he made a dua (prayer). He got real emotional and I have to be honest, I had no idea what he was saying, I mean, mostly because it's in arabic, some words I can understand but most are just confusing. But just from hearing his voice and the emotions behind it, it was really moving. Granted there were some awkward moments where he was just weeping and every one of the ladies ar...

It has happened. Yet again, 2 years later, history has managed to repeat itself. He has ended it. Funny story I tell you, he decided to end it on the phone with a 'let's just be friends' statement. Oh how those words are music to my ears. Because evidently, every girlfriend who's been with someone for 5 years now wants to hear that. I was just so appalled that that was how he chose to deal with the situation. A two and a half hour conversation was stretched and dragged out on the phone, only to end up with a pathetic 'let's just be friends'.  How. How can one just go from lovers to friends in a day? Seems almost next to impossible. That hurt me. How it didn't phase him, how he could just think it was appropriate to end things like this. And what did it take for us to finally talk about it a week and a half later? Me. I had to be the one and call him and say we need to talk in person. Why. Why must i always get the short end of the stick? Sometimes it fee...