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So, a lot of things have happened ever since my best friend died. Wow, sometimes i have to hand it to myself for being melodramatic. My best friend didn't actually 'die' per se, but this is exactly what it feels like. It's quite painful. But this entry is not about that. It's about how life is just so crazy. I actually never thought i'd find myself in this position especially right after what happened. But what can i say, things are different i'm handling things differently. My strategy is different from what it was about 2ish years ago. I shall not mope and sit at home, i shall meet new people and explore my options. I went to my friend's birthday party not too long ago downtown and I met a lot of people, mainly from the loo. But yeah i met a guy, he seemed nice enough, and we talked the whole time and he even dropped me off to the bus station. Now, I'm usually very good at picking up vibes from people aka boys. I can usually tell when they're interested and what's going on. Of course, it crossed my mind during the night but i let it slip because it was no biggie. But then my other friend brought it up and I thought, well wait a minute let's see what's actually going on here. Long story short, my natural instinct was right. Tomorrow i find myself going on a date? Wow i havent been on one of those in a while. I mean, he didn't say it was explicitly a date, but when someone drives all the way from the east end of town to see you, i guess it kind of is. And we are both interested in each other, and knowing more about one another. I just wonder, what the fuck is up with the timing here? Like this happened pretty fast. I don't know how to act on a first date, like what do i say? But for some reason i think that this guy will listen to me more. I feel like he's too nice to tell me what to do. Maybe a potential whippee (is that even a word?) All i know is that any guy is an upgrade from he who shall not be named. Cuz simply put, he didn't really have many things going for him. We'll see what happens, i'm open to everything. Wish me lucky on my first date :)

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