There's always that one person

Is it just me or is there always a friend in your life that you've been attracted to since the first day you met them? And for some x, y, z reason, you can't say anything to them and you just kick this attraction into the deep layers of subconsciousness. I feel like the fact that they are forbidden territory just makes this attraction more, i wouldn't say stronger but more existent. And then we find ourselves subtly giving clues to this person that sometimes we are not even aware about ourselves. For example, there is a saying that if you're in a room with someone you're attracted to, your body language will show it, more specifically, your belly button will be aligned with the other persons. Now, I don't know how much i believe that, but i guess i can say sometimes it's true. But i guess that makes that saying very subjective. Even right now as I write this entry, i feel that it's counterproductive...as if just by thinking of this person, my brain is recognizing that I am attracted to them. What the hell is the point of this attraction though...when nothing can come of it? It's like i can't cross my limits but then again...what the heck is stopping me? Oh i know, my past. My fucking past. Maybe one day i'll be able to forget what happened in the past and move on. For now, I'm just gonna bury this feeling inside cuz i know it can never happen.

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