The feels

There's many things that I feel and think but I'll never say. I guess because I'm thinking no one wants to hear them because it's a whole mess of the inner workings of Samra Nadeem. Some don't make sense and some are just repeats. We don't need to make sense of our thoughts or our emotions because then it wouldn't be real life. I feel very lost, maybe because this is the transition stage. I find myself seeking for answers that remain without questions. The persistent advice you get is "time will tell". Things will happen when they are supposed to and when things are right. I do believe in destiny and I do believe that Allah has written this down for us. But I would be lying if I didn't say that I wish I had a fast forward remote. How tragic is that concept. In one hand I want to hold every grain of sand that slips from time and using the other (most probably my left) I want to throw a chunk of it away. Do I lack patience? Or am I just going through an understandably confusing phase. It's hard to grasp that every decision made will shape my life for my upcoming years. I can only hope to make the right ones that will lead towards ultimate growth. I do hope that I find some sort of peace within them. 

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