Sooner than later, I'll need a saviour.

Reconnecting with a past friend is always hard. Especially when that friend is your ex's best friend. I didn't know this was actually gonna happen. I mean yeah, I've gotten his msgs on msn but when i saw that he msged me on xbox live, i was thinking, what is going on here. Yesterday we talked online with our wonderful xbox headsets, but wow. I haven't talked to him in what, 5 or 6 months maybe? It was sort of like a phone conversation because we could hear each others voices...there was some other guy in the conversation and he sure added in some wierd moments in the conversation. Like when he asked him if i was hot or when he asked him how i knew him. Now i'll be the first to admit, i was good friends with him when i was going out with my ex, we used to talk a lot. He was always really nice to me and it was just fun talking to him. But now things are different. I mean, it's silly because i have nothing against him, we're fine. But just the fact that he is his best friend. I'm hesitant to talk to him because i don't want the information going back to you know who. And i guess his loyalty would be in question as well. I mean, i miss him as a friend, we used to have awesome conversations and laughs but do i really want to talk to him now? Now that things are different? I'd be lying if i said that his voice didn't remind me of my ex. But am i willing to put that aside and suck it up and just talk to him? I don't know yet, i think time will tell. The sad part is that my best friend isn't here, she left for Mexico today. And as past experiences have shown, something always goes wrong when she isn't here. I just hope nothing wrong happens this time, and even if things get out of hand, she'll always be my saviour.

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