I just hope you miss me a little when i'm gone

Just now i was watching the mtv show "Teen Mom" and it was intense. I really enjoy the show because it follows the real lives and situations of these teen parents. There is no fairytale ending, it's raw and it's real life. And sometimes, real life does suck. One mom named Farrah, went through a physical altercation with her mother and thus moved out of the house with her baby daughter. She doesn't get along with her family and shows little interest to put any effort into those broken relationships. So she went and got a therapist because she is a single mom who is working to take care of her child without her family's help. Upon meeting the therapist, she begins to talk about her feelings. At one point she reveals the story behind Sophia's (her daughter) father being absent from the picture. She tells the therapist that her father passed away and how she's crushed because her daughter won't be able to see him. That was an emotionally intense episode. When i think about it, i know that if someone was to come to me and tell me that he passed away, i would be frozen. Speechless, sad, hurt. Just because even though i've buried him into the deepest layers of my mind, he's still there. I walk around saying that i don't care if anything happens to him but i know i will. And i don't think time will erase this caring i have for him. I'll move on, find someone better, but i'll still care for him. I just need to accept that it is what it is.  Because even though there might have been a rough patch somewhere down the line, i know i'll miss him a little when he's gone.

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