Eff me for not getting over this (subconsciously)

Okay so i woke up today with another good feeling...turns out that i had gotten this good feeling from nothing other than just a dream. I remember my friend said to me how he thought that human beings should only be able to have nightmares and not good dreams. Why? He said that at least when you're having a nightmare, you know you'll be able to wake up but if you're having the best dream of your life, you'll just wake up to a big disappointment. Holy shit is that true. So in my dream, we basically went back to the my high school but it was mostly set in a park. I was happily walking through the park when i ran into you know who. Of course, i'm not talking about lord voldemort but you get the picture. He held his big arms out and then he lifted me (like off the ground) and gave me a big fat hug. Said, "i missed you and i wanna be with you." I hugged him back with a smile, clearly unable to react the way i had planned it in my head if it ever was to happen. As we're walking around the school outside hand in hand we see this kid that was on both of our bus. He was his friend and he says to him, "oh you're back on that again eh?" He replies with a "yeah man" and smiles. We continue to be all "coupley" and sit on this rock which is basically shaped like a table and we talk, we start to catch up. Then out of nowhere, these 3 unknown girls come sit beside him and say "Are you sure you wanna do this again?". It doesn't take a genius to figure out what they're talking about so i say, "okay, this is awkward". And i get up, let go of his hand and walk away. Knowing that it was awkward for me, he doesn't stop me. But because it's my dream, i get to hear the conversation he has with these girls. It basically all sums up to, "i don't care, i really like her and i wanna be with her." Woot? Then i tell my best friend and she helps me do some retail therapy which is apparently in the school and at the end of the day, i'm left waiting to see whether he'll come pick me up (choose to be with me) or not show up at all (go with his initial decision). This is when i wake up. I feel bad for saying this, but when we were together in my dream...it felt good. I KNOW its horrible. I don't know. I cut all ties with him because i was afraid i wasn't going to get the closure i was looking for...ever. Now i'm sitting here being nostalgic and just wanting to get in touch with him. Maybe this is a phase. I hope it'll pass.

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