The big day

So if everything goes as planned, Monday will be the big day. The thing is, my parents are making it awfully hard for me to take Monday off from work. Because they keep suggesting that a day off would be beneficial to me during Ramadhan, the month of fasting. I agree with this, but im not going to be fasting and then be seeing him...that would just be wrong and going against my morals. They need to let me do what i want because i know im really not that needed at work seeing as i came back after 5 weeks and they had little work for me. If this plan succeeds, then it will be a big day, mark your calender fools! haha kidding. I'm kinda scared for taking this big step, but i know i want to. My, have i changed since last year, i'm not a strong follower of my religion, like yeah i pray sometimes, i don't eat meat thats not halal, and i don't drink, but i think thats about it. My views have changed because i used to be anti sexual relations before marriage, but you know what, i've been patient! and i've taken my time to get to where i am with him, and it just feels right. I will fast i know that, so i need this to happen before that. I'm ready, i want to be his first and vice versa, no regrets. If my friend can do it only dating someone for like 4 months, then i think i can too from being with him for like 3 years. I think we deserve this, because we are in a committed stable relationship, we're not just goofing around. i less than 3 him and i know ill wake up the next morning not having any regrets...and if i do have regrets, well then...you'll be the first ones to know =P so wish me luck, for this big day!

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