Carpe freakin' diem

Hello all, so this week is the last week of classes before final exams and all i can say is wow, yet another year has come and gone! Felt like i was just starting third year yesterday, and wondering how i would survive school again. But here i am, i survived. Through the midterms, essays, and early mornings, i'm here. People ask, 'so how does it feel to have finished third year, oh my god, one more year!!' And i'm just like uhh i'm not done yet. I still have two more years to go. According to me, the ending of this year is mundane, and it doesn't do anything for me. Sure, life is getting serious...but does that mean that we do too? I mean, of course...we have some sense of responsibility...after all, we've come a long way, but I don't think i'm a full grown adult and ready to live that life. I'm still a kid...honestly, i'm still a kid. Even the whole marriage thing, if i could, i would just move in with my bf...but i can't do that in my culture, and this is why marriage comes up. But let's save that for another day. What the essence of this entry is, is that I think we should live a little. Yeah we're close to graduation, but if we take life so seriously all the time, we're going to look back and be like man...what the hell was i thinking? I understand my priorities in life, i really do. But i feel like if i don't give time to people and things that are important to me, i'm not living. I mean, we all know the importance of education and career, but are we consumed by it? Yes. Should we be? Probably not. My teacher that i intern with brought up a really good point. She said, yeah you have a job, but it shouldn't be your life. YES, YES, amen. When i look at people who are all about work and school, i just smh...and believe me, i don't use that expression at all so this means it's serious. It stinks even more when those people are your supposed close friends.

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