Obliterated

How much can one person tolerate? How much can I? When I kept telling you, "I'm on the edge, I can't handle this" did you think that gave you the green light to see how much you could push me? Imagine this, I'm standing close to the edge of the cliff, with each argument I get closer and closer towards the edge. What happens when there's no more ground for my feet? I fall of course. I have fallen off this cliff, are you that surprised? It's funny when you can act ignorant on the fact that I've forewarned you about this many times. If you're going to keep playing catch with a glass ball, eventually it's going to break (enough analogies for you yet?) Once it breaks, it's going to be cold...not warm and put together. Maybe this attitude consoles me more from the stuff I've gone through, heck whatever consoles me is good from this point. I think you took me for granted. When you involve parents in problems, they don't forgive easily, they become disappointed and it gets hard for them to accept anything. Your significant other might forgive you, because they have a soft spot for you but parents won't. So choose battles wisely.

There's no relationship without trust. Frankly, I don't trust you because time after time, you've disappointed me. Always asking me for answers on how to fix problems...why? Can't you handle things? If you've put me in a situation with my hands tied, I'm sure you can think of something. And if you can't, then that's cool too. Just reep what you sow. 

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