All you wanted

Expectations...ah what horrible things to have. When they're so high, people will fall so low trying to reach them.  And what is the end result? Disappointment and resentment. So what's the solution here? Isn't it better not to have them? But Samra, thou shall not talk about such a hard task. Unfortunately everyone has expectations, even if they don't think they do, they do, subconsciously. We always hope for things how we perceive them in our head, even if we say we don't care. Granted some of us are more numb than others (Rip Chester Bennington, love you) and it doesn't hurt as much whereas with others, it hurts a lot. There's no point in sitting here deciphering which kinds of expectations are okay to have and which are not, because who's to say? It all depends. The best are the negative expectations, when you expect someone to react negatively because it's become a norm and you've habituated to it. It's sad isn't it? 

For once, can you just NOT succumb to anger/annoyance/irritation? Is this too hard to ask? People who cause me stress, I like to distance myself from, I don't have the mental capacity for your thoughts, I don't want to waste time exercising my mind and calculating all the possibilities  in which I could've been at fault. 

SO lonely inside but so busy out there. 

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