The world might as well have ended [in 2012]

This year has been quite the year. It has had its highs and its lows...now i'm just waiting for the world to end in December. Kidding...not. Starting this year off at New Years, I never knew it would be like this...this difficult. Yep, that word pretty much sums up this year. It seems like everything has fell apart or is falling apart. I just want to lead a simple life. Really. To begin with, fourth year is mega rape. I find it so hard and busy, sometimes I don't have any time for myself. The gym seems like my only escape, and I NEED to go to the gym or else I won't have any outlet of blowing off steam or contemplating. There are weeks where I just stay at home, of course, I hate myself for doing that because home is a disaster. Everyone is fighting with each other, everyone has issues. My mom is in one room and my dad in the other, it's been so long since they've had a proper conversation. I just don't understand...why can't my dad just talk? I don't get it. Really i don't. I love my mom, i really do, and I will always take her side on this. Why? Because i've been through it and I know how it feels. Granted my mom's situation is a bit worse because she is married to him, but I know where she's coming from. In so many ways my dad reminds me of him. I hate the way he treats my mom but i can't say anything. Ego, what a big ego. Why do men who have nothing to offer always have their heads all the way up there? Why do men take advantage of women who are completely out of their leagues and they should be lucky enough to appreciate that they got such a pretty woman. That's just how the world works...people take advantage of girls like my mom and I, because they never truly understand their value.  If this is what 'love' nowadays is, I want no part of it. I just want to be by myself and live my life traveling and being with my friends. True love is a scam. It's very rare. At the end of the day, always be with someone who loves you more than you love them, because you know what? They fuckin' deserve to be running after you, and you deserve the best that you can possibly get, no compromise. 

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